Monday, December 15th, 2003

Time	Event
12:54a	Uh... Yeah... A Perfect Circle - [A Stranger]--- I've been listening to this album a Lot, if you hadn't noticed... I really, really like it. In that, ow-it-hurts-so-good-cause-it-feels-true kinda way. (A Perfect Circle - [The Outsider]). "Help me, if you can/It's just that this, is not the way i'm wired so..." Yummy yummy yummy. Been studying, tonight, like i haven't studied, since my senior year. I've been colour coding passages, and writing margin notes, and not even in something that i particularly like. It's for global issues... It's rather strange, but the whole "I fucking chose it, so let's say we shut up and get it done" has come back. So that's what i'm doing. Feels good. Been studying over a hundred pages of material, and i'm going to be doing it again, in just a bit. Taking a break, talking online, waiting for people, before i get back to it. A Perfect Circle - [Crimes]--- I keep forgetting that there are times that i really do love political science, because everything that people try to make work on the macro, global scale, is really much more suited to the Micro, interpersonal scale. Because that's what they're drawing from, politics and all. That's why it doesn't work out, as well as we'd like. Why it's not a perfect fit. Hell, it's not a perfect fit, in the micro, either, but it's a bit better than the mess we hand ourselves, on the world stage. That's my opinion, at the moment; it may change, later. A Perfect Circle - [The Nurse Who Loved Me]--- So, i'm back to waiting, then more reading. Then, tomorrow, i take a test, at 5, and then Global Issues is done. And i will bid it Farewell. Back later. Current Mood: pretty good, for the studying Current Music: A Perfect Circle - [The Nurse Who Loved Me] (Comment on this)
10:40p	DON'T PANIC! Placebo - [The Bitter End]--- My plan was simple. I would study, tonight, for Film, and a little American Government, and then, tomorrow, i'd study some more Film, and A.G., but mainly i'd start studying German, which i would continue, on Wednesday, after my other tests. This was when I thought that my German test was Thursday. It's tomorrow. Plans have changed, accordingly. At the moment, i'm doing all that i can, not to hyperventilate, and remember that i'm better than this. (A Perfect Circle - [The Package]). That i can study hard and quickly, under pressure. That i don't need to panic, because whatever happens, happens. That's what the sane, calm parrt of me is saying, when ever the Other part is pausing for breath. The Other part is the one screaming "SHIT FUCK ASS COCK PISS HELL DAMN FART!" and generally not being helpful to this situation, at all. So, tonight, ladies and gents, we aren't going anywhere. I mean, you guys do what you want, but I'm going to be sitting here, and studying, until about 3 am. Then i'm going to go to bed, so that i can wake up at 12, and do Driving stuffs. Hooray. Let's not even talk about the fact that, recently, the thought of driving has made me more nervous than i really care to talk about. So, i'm going to go pray to some Germanic Gods and Demi Gods, and i'm going to study until my fucking Mind Bleeds. Good Night. Good Bye. Dream Well Current Mood: Very unhappy, and yourself? Current Music: A Perfect Circle - Weak And Powerless (Comment on this)

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